What Rock Bottom Feels Like and Three Steps to Get You Back on Track

Ten years ago, pretty much to the day, I woke up in a Reykjavik hotel bed, drenched in a cold sweat. I had been there on an all expenses paid work jolly up, and had as per usual got myself into a very messy mess. I had the familiar heart sinking feeling that shit had gone down the night before, but couldn’t recall the details. It took me some time to gather the momentum to get myself out of bed. I needed the loo but…

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Our Kindness Challenge Advent Calendar to Countdown to Christmas

We’ve never done chocolate advent calendars here, and our elf on the shelf experience was an absolute nightmare. Seriously, it was so bad that she got sold on eBay last week. This year we’re giving something completely different a go, and the children will have kindness challenges to complete each day.    I’ve already decided that my word for 2017 is going to be kindness. For a multitude of reasons, but ultimately because we need more of it in the world, and especially so in my little…

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A Letter to My Four Year Old Almost One Term After Starting School

Dearest Clara,  I’ve been wanting to write you this note for a while now. It was originally going to be a good luck before you started school. Then I almost wrote you a letter after parents evening, one month in. Your teachers were positively gushing about you in every way, and the proud mama in me wanted to tell the world.  It didn’t seem right to count chickens though.  I’m glad I didn’t, because I had a feeling all along that it wouldn’t last. It’s not…

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Perfect Family Lunch at Café Rouge and Our Picks from the Autumn Winter Menu 

As we hurtle along at breakneck speed towards 2017, I’ve been trying to focus on the warm and fuzzy memories that have been created this year.  We’re doing a happiness challenge advent calendar to countdown to Christmas (more on that another time), and it’s been a great exercise to get me in the mood for it. I’m hoping that by practising gratitude it will set a good example to the children, and they’ll follow suit. Our recent family lunch at Café Rouge was awesome, and…

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We Need to Stop Fighting Over Who Has it the Hardest 

Earlier this week I posted an article about how hard it is not being able to take my autistic daughter’s sadness away (you can read it here if you like). Don’t get me wrong, there are many other things that are hard. As my children grow older though, I’m learning that the very hardest thing is seeing them suffer (in any capacity) and not being able to do a damn thing about it. I was feeling super low I posted the blog on one of the…

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The Importance of Finding the Right Childcare

Two years ago I was gearing up to go back to my part time job, after being on maternity leave with Freddy, who was seven months old. My amazing ex-boss agreed for me to work mostly from home, with a monthly visit into the London office, providing I signed an agreement that stated my children would not be present while I worked. I was really glad for the opportunity, but super stressed out over what we’d do for childcare. I was also wracked with guilt for…

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The Hardest Thing About Being an Autism Mama

The Hardest Thing About Being an Autism Mama Another day started too early, with grumping and hurrumping and fighting before even getting to the breakfast table. Tears of frustration being cried at not even 8am. A sad Clara went off to school, asking me once again “why does Polly hate me so much?” Of course Polly doesn’t hate her sister, but it can certainly come across that way. I futilely tried to find answers when we got home.  Polly shut down, her face became angry, then the jumping…

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Parenting Must Always Come Before Politics

I’m not American, but like many others across the globe, Wednesday’s result floored me. I allowed politics to get in the way of parenting, and that is not okay at all! I was in pieces over the result first thing, and my mood only declined throughout the day. I allowed myself to become consumed by what was going on in the world, completely to the detriment of what was happening inside my own four walls. I went against all my self-imposed rules about time spent on social…

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When You Are Verbally Attacked by a Random in Front of Your Children

“You ignorant f***ing b****!!” It took me a while to realise that he was shouting at me. I’m not entirely sure what I was supposed to have done, or not done, to warrant being verbally attacked. The torrent of expletives coming from his mouth would indicate I’d done something truly horrendous, but I couldn’t have. I was just standing next to Freddy’s buggy on the bus, making sure it didn’t topple over. Fortunately his tirade came through the window, after he’d got off, and Polly innocently…

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The Trouble with Giving a Shit, and Other First World Problems

We are told constantly not to stress out over the things we can’t control, but it’s not that simple, because we’re not robots are we? It’s impossible to unsee things we’ve seen, or unfeel emotions we’ve felt. Really though it’s a rather convenient way of looking at life, because once we’re suitably numb to the horrors of how so many have to live, we no longer care. Once we don’t care all the associated stress of caring disappears. The trouble with giving a shit is…

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